remeeting

B aeolian / B dorian broken ladder
i see him in his teenage quest for meaning a true soulmate to relate. gravitate. navigate by the stars this lonely world i see you in your work your brow so focused the things you make that i break when i place all of my panic in your hands
i was so deeply broken if you could understand i'd like to think you'd see me the sadness was an ocean…in me
someday the stars will burn out and will i know you then? perhaps it's all repeating and we are all remeeting
i've travelled back at times and touched the third rail those sprawling small town stroads left for the coast—never looked back—years ago i found my self-esteem in all the vastness but when i'm back the map goes blank i'm still that orphan, on my own
you ask me why i do this? well i don't know myself perhaps i'm made of feelings so deep reason can't reach them know this: my crimes of desperation if i had only known the price would be forever i would have kept myself together
free the light i said free the light lead me…lead me on sunbeams upward thru the sky bleed the darkness from my mind